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But since really turning my life over to the program, et cetera, I have not. And that’s part of my story. Which just happened about four times in the last year. And it saddens me deeply when I see situations happen…other people in my field, for example, musicians who for some reason forgot what they were up against and ended up dead. The days and the months and the years are very important to me.

But that’s not the whole answer. And that’s most certainly true. And there was other stuff that happened in the last ten years that’s been equally great. There are stages of life that I went through, and I wouldn’t trade any of it. You realize it was always there, and your fear goes away.… We all got sober, I guess, over ’88, ’89, and those albums were all off the charts. Now I think about music a lot, I listen to music a lot.

What they have in common is that they are all, by their own account, for now, living sober. Some see significant correlations here; some don’t. Some created the work that made them first or best known before they were sober; some have done so since. Some were clean before the end of their buddhist teachings to overcome addiction with vimalasara teenage years; some only surfaced into sobriety much later in their lives.

And if you’re going to have one drink, then you might as well have five, because you’ve gone and ruined it now. I’m taking incredible pride in this journey that is sobriety, and I don’t want to let it go. I think, “Well, maybe when I’m 75 and I’ve retired to Barcelona, I’ll pour myself a drink.” But then I’m also competitive as hell—I don’t want to lose my streak. There’s times…I think there’s seasons of life. But I keep myself surrounded by the people that are, and I rely on them for things in my life.

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So, to take the edge off, she started drinking a glass of wine before bed. Seven years before I quit drinking, I heard a story that I never forgot. Not everyone feels connected to God or to anything spiritual. What if I don’t connect with the “God part” in AA? When someone feels forced into a single path, they often pull away from the very help they’re seeking. Add sober to one of your lists below, or create a new one.

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I don’t think there were any bands that even knew what sober was. I would do a little bit of cocaine or some painkillers to sober myself up so I could drink some more. And yeah, I did some drugs, but usually that was just to keep drinking.

Sobriety doesn’t feel like giving something up—it feels like gaining what was lost. I told people I was “taking a month off” since I wasn’t confident yet, and peer pressure can be hard to resist. Numbing was easier than facing the parts of myself I didn’t yet want to see. I started noticing moments where I felt almost outside myself while drinking, like I was watching from a distance. If what she said was true, then every drink I took was a roll of the dice.

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• Every second you’re there, that’s a second you don’t have to live through again, so that’s kind of what got me through it.
• A woman I knew—I’ll call her Sarah—shared that she had spent most of her adult life barely drinking.
• But I don’t miss anything about the way I used to be, because I’m too satisfied with how I feel without it.
• Sober curiosity is often defined as having the option to question or change one’s drinking habits, for mental or physical health reasons.
• Just try to live your life as it happens.

At the time it was great fun. I was just doing it because that’s what you do. But I didn’t know how to name any of those emotions. After two encores in Madison Square Garden, you don’t go and play shuffleboard.

• If I woke up one morning now feeling like I did ten years ago, every day, I would think I was dying and I would immediately go to the emergency room.
• And a big light went off, and I didn’t feel alone anymore.
• And the more time I spent working on what had caused me to be a drunk in the first place, the less afraid I was of that particular ghost returning.
• You may also experience what is commonly called sobriety fatigue, which refers to the overall exhaustion that may occur as a result of the emotional and physical stress of staying sober.
• But for me things sort of came in waves of what I needed to eliminate from my life until I started to see a pattern.

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I can’t change the past, but I definitely spend every day trying to live a different reality than that. As I often did at that time, I did a shot of tequila, and then I did another shot of tequila, because I really liked tequila. I remember it like it was yesterday.

Before I became sober, I thought I was funnier when I was drunk or high. Does it leave you feeling more whole or emptier than before? What role does it play in your life?

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I need intimacy in everything I do—I need things to feel vulnerable and connected. To me it’s like, I just came here because Radiohead was headlining, you know? And I make it this whole like dramatic thing of being “Get me the fuck out of here—I don’t want to be around that energy at all.” It’s so draining for me. laughs But I also don’t want to work with them. I don’t do anything—there’s nothing you can do.

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And as far as the very person I was, not the activities, I don’t miss that person at all. It was just a catalyst for a feeling. But in truth, that was never my relationship to it, since I never, ever thought what alcohol tasted like, or even cared.

My whole life and identity and my daily cycle of being alive for five years, or whatever, was just wrapped up in drugs. I feel like I’ve had bad nights or destructive nights or nights where I don’t remember anything or nights where I was seriously injured or seriously in danger. I know a lot of people who struggled with addiction had that.

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I have not drank or used drugs for, let’s see, six years, maybe. It’s been about six and a half years since I’ve had anything like a controlled substance or any alcohol. My sobriety date is February 25, 2017, so I guess a couple months shy of two years.

“I think there’s so much value in reminding people that they can change the trajectory of their lives.”—Julien Baker It’s definitely the most difficult thing I’ve ever done in my life. I don’t really know how to describe it in a few sentences. And I want my life to have meaning.”

Connection to a community is a deep human need, one that I think becomes even more important when in recovery. I had just given all my power away to the alcoholic mind, which was pretty much a dictator. And you’re just, “Oh boy, look at that…” Just fleeting moments, and an emotional anxiety that went along with it. The alcohol dreams go away after a while, or at least they slow down. They seem so lucid, that I’m actually breaking sobriety, that when I wake up, I’m shocked that that wasn’t reality.

If people can find the way out. And the life at the other end of that is a beautiful life. I think there’s so much value in reminding people that they can change the trajectory of their lives. And if I’m going to talk about sobriety, I just want to add that there is a solution. When before, it was like you’re a freak. Making decisions on a daily basis to do things that I’m not comfortable with, and to allow myself to feel the discomfort of connecting with strangers.